They keep changing things on dA. Every time I think I have it all figured out, something else is different. I think it's a conspiracy.

First of all, Blessed Solstice..or Happy Holidays..I don't feel like listing them all here, but the Longest Night is what my brood and I celebrate. I am trying to think of Something Awesome we can do to celebrate.

Second of all, my dear friend sent me an email, and wants to shoot more electric chair shots. I will not give anything away, but I think this new set is going to be killer!

Third of all, FNORD!

I heart you all.

I'm shooting photos this weekend, finally. I think the last ones I shot were the family ones for Yule. Don't ask me what theme or any of that, because I have no idea, I am just geeked to be in front of a camera again.

I have noticed that some of the people I made friends with through my ex have been really quiet since we split up. While I expected that to a degree, it still rankles a little. It's weird how quickly people will suddenly decide not to be friends with a person, even if they've been friends for several years. Well, there isn't much I can do about it.

I have a headache. I want a soak in a hot tub.

My seasonal depression is rearing its ugly head. It's mine. I have it. I do not want it to have me. Some of you might remember when I posted the Malice in Wonderland drawings. If you do remember, bless you for sticking around that long. That year was one of the worst for seasonal depression that I've ever experienced. I've learned how to deal with it since.

I've been drawing a LOT. Unfortunately the only paper I have is so large that I can't put it on a regular flatbed scanner. I am not adept at computer art programs, or I'd scan it in pieces and try to fix it in GIMP. I'd ruin it. Trust me. Close your eyes and try to picture these in your head. I have drawn a majestic dragon swooping down on a knight, Vin Diesel as Riddick, and my last one is Leonardo DiCaprio and Claire Danes..as elves. I get bored. I have decided that I would like more practice with drawing humans, and making them SPECIFIC humans. It's fun.

I'm going to learn how to dance on a pole. Wish me luck. I am far too white to have rhythm.

So, how are things with all of you?

I hate titles. I can't stress that enough.

I've had a weird summer. In June, I quit the apprentice thing at the tattoo shop, after agonizing over it for months. It wasn't working out, I was working my ass of for little money and less thanks, and not learning enough to justify the expense of going back and forth every day. I had some issues with the guy and the other girl, but I gritted my teeth and bore it for almost a year, so that was the least of my worries. I will not lie to people to make them spend money. That was the proverbial straw that broke the camel's back for me.

A couple of weeks ago, I ended my relationship with my long time boyfriend. I agonized over that for almost a year, but sometimes things need to be done that are unpleasant in order to make people happier. I would like everyone to know that Mr. Spooki and I are still friends, and he is not a horrid human being or anything like that. Go send him hugs. He probably needs them.

I am trying to figure out, now, how to do the things I need to do to support myself and my children. I need an education..so I need either a car, or my own dish and router to take online classes. Neither of those things are feasible for me at this moment. Pray to the money gods, or the car faerie, or something, if you would. LOL. I will, as always, draw for food, so if you know ANYONE who needs a tattoo designed and is willing to fork over some cash, please point them in my direction. They will not be disappointed, and I will repay the favor in any way possible. Within reason, you perverts. LOL.

Anyway, I don't really know what else to say. I am exhausted and apathetic about a lot of things lately, but I hope all of my stalkers are doing well.

I am on a rampant friends list purging spree, on all of my social networking sites. I quit smoking about a week ago, give or take a day or two, and apparently when you quit smoking, you experience a chemical imbalance that makes you feel like killing everyone. I am mostly over it, but one day I decided that anyone who just added me for the sake of having a bigger friends list can just go right the fuck away.

Um. I really don't have anything else, currently. Everything is status quo. My last baby is out of diapers. She is now entering the "Why" stage..and she asks very profound questions, sometimes.

Anyway, thanks to all of you who continue to watch. I will try to have a drawing up soon.